Numbers

Theodore's birthday - April 23 = 04 23 = 27

Alexander's birthday - February 27 = 02 27 = 29


Alexander's due date - Feb 18 = 02 18 = 20

Theodore's due date - May 9 = 05 09 = 14


Theo's date of conception - August 18 = 08 18 = 26

Alexander's date of conception - May 29 = 05 29 = 34




Alexander's due date based on LMP = Feb 21 = 02 21 = 23

Theodore's due date based on LMP = May 12 = 05 12 = 17


Theo's gestation was 37+5

Alexander's gestation was 41+2



All of Alexander's numbers are bigger... greater than... more than...

He is the big brother.  He is the biggest.  He is first.


If Theo gestated 41+2 days he would have been born on May 18

Alexander was due on February 18

18.  They share it.  But it's not real.  Theo didn't go to 41+2.  We let him go only to 37+5 to make sure he came out alive.


04 23 = 27.  Alexander was 27.  27.

I wanted Theo born on April 25.  04 25 to be 29.  Alexander was 02 27.  29.  But no.  They don't share 29.

I wanted them to legitimately share a number.  I wanted them both to have a number to represent them both.  I would take that number and sear it on to my heart.



37+5 = 42
41+2 = 43

42 - 43 = -1
43 - 42 = 1

I have 1 son.  I have -1 son.

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Theodore is now awake.  I wanted to trip out on these numbers a bit longer... 

Maybe it will all mean something some day...